Sunday, February 26, 2006

why do we do the things we do.
not necessary everything did was done with a reason. but still, we doggedly pursue those elusive answers which we ourselves may not know. struggling, the questioned tries to put the abstract, intangible explanation in words. these very words can shed light on the seemingly mystifying acts, or they can generate more confusion as the puzzle seems to complicate itself, involving more issues than intended. the answer may satisfy the questioner, it can also shock as well. the truth seems unexpected sometimes- it can be blatantly obvious and in your face all the while but you never noticed; it can be painfully simple that you never thought of it as an answer. but a simple answer is never an answer enough. we read into the simple answer as we attach a multitude of agendas and justifications to it.
in the endless search for answers, we question ourselves. we question others. as questions lead to even more questions, the answer seems further away than ever. we go on and on, piloting ourselves away from the original intent. just like how i'm now digressing from the question itself.
i nearly forgot why i asked that.
so, why do we do the things we do.
some people think there's a reason behind everything. i think not. sometimes behaviour mirror our sub-consciousness. thus we cannot really explain it, because the word sub is there for a reason (: as i have always said, ignorance is bliss. so, what's wrong with plain acceptance? insecurities tell us that there is more to it than we think, it's dangerous to just accept without contemplating what it is for. school tells us to think critically. society tells us reading something at face value is superficial and dumb. so we dont. still, i dont think it's necessary to apply it to everything. by saying this, i'm not endorsing shallow interpretation. i'm just saying there's a time for everything. there are times when we need to contemplate and delve deep beneath the surface. other times, we should just live and let go.
most of the time, we dont ask ourselves why we do the things we do.
do we?
ok, i dont.
i'm troubled by the inconviniences of that. laziness doesnt permit me to do so. so i dont. until something major happens. even when i do, naïveity normally reassures me everything is not as bad as it seems, though people around me may think otherwise. really, i dont think it's that bad. my rationale being that a shattered heart is better than none. all's not lost yet. the same goes with other problems. so long the people involved are still feeling, hope still remains. call me an unrealistic optimist all you want (: at least it's better than an unrealistic pessimist. surely i would rather have my head in the clouds than be buried several feet deep under all the grime of my musings. but still, it's never too good to be unrealistic. the unrealistic optimist may fall from the clouds as the truth hits, dying on his way on the long fall down, the pressure causing his lungs to be pierced. the unrealistic pessimist may suffocate. oh my, this is getting morbid.
again, back to the question, why do we do the things we do.
do you regret for not asking yourselves that? regret is another big cause of depression. we lament the things that we could have done but didnt. we mope about what we shouldnt do but did. either way, it's a horrible feeling. in the name of self expression, we sometimes hurt others unwittingly.chanel handbags at that point in time, the most important thing is of course, thy self. human relationships are more delicate than we think they are. a single comment or a small act can tip that fine balance and result in catastrophic consequences. you never know how the other person is going to react to it. you never know what something that small can impact on another person's life. it can end up making a person's day or breaking it. but there is no point in submerging ourselves in regret, like how we wallow ourselves in self pity. well, though i agree that moaning about why we exist is an essential part of our existence, it is not the entirety of it. just indulge in it for a while, and come out of that too-small shell that doesnt really fit who you are.
why do we do the things we do?
why ask that, since none of us can undo what we have done.

shan posted at 11:53 pm